I've become increasingly agitated all night. I've been lying on my bed since midnight and I think I'm subconsciously winding myself up.
I keep getting tingles through my body, I can't breathe calmly and I've had a bunch of heart palpitations.
I'm fine - I'm not ill, I know its just bad anxiety, but I don't know why!
I'm thinking of everything all at once, and of course surgery is more than a frequent visitor for my thoughts, but I'm so frustrated because its not done, its not now and its been almost 8 weeks and I still have no orthodontist!!!
My head is in my hands - why do we do that when we're stressed? I want to cry but I know its so irrational. I want to talk to my best friend but I don't want to burden him. I want to punch my ex in the face but I don't want to see him.
Its like I'm really really thirsty and nothing is quenching it!
I'm going skiing in France - on my own, in less than 2 weeks, and now I'm thinking is this a bad idea. What if I get lost? what if I forget how to ski? What if I make no friends? What if the old friend I'm meeting doesn't meet me? I wanted to have had surgery by now - I'm not ready to get on with things until then - it doesn't feel worth it!
I'm clogging up all of your relevant brace information with this - but just typing this up, organising and rationalising my thoughts is making me feel better - having to think before I type is helping. I don't know why this is happening now - its Christmas for gods sake!
I guess everything just catches up to you sometimes