I'm ready? Lets go then!

Right, lets blast through this!

Appointment today:

• 1pm - Impressions - I didn't choke this time (yay) but my ortho (another locum) had the stupidest idea of taking my impressions BEFORE removing my wires which meant I then had to lie there, gagging on the bits of rubber which fell from wires as he removed them... I was not a happy bunny.

Waiting 

• 4pm - Impression review - They have told me that my teeth are done, I repeat DONE needing any adjustments and that I won't need any more orthodontic treatment. The casts of my teeth fit perfectly into the predicted post-surgery position and for now, I have been fitted with some thin wiring to prevent any further movement.

Waiting

• 4.35pm - Xrays - I had 2 xrays taken and then was called back to compare them with my original xrays - I'm told that everything is fine and I'm still just having my lower jaw operated on, as opposed to double - this again was offered to me today, but I just want to finish this - it would take another years worth of orthodontics to get my upper teeth ready for surgery!!!
• 5pm - Photographs - I had my photographs taken at very specific angles (45* 90* etc) and then profiles before I had to have those horrible plastic things in my mouth, stretching out my lips for some up close photography.

SUMMERY!!!

I am done with the ortho department - I am now waiting for my appointment to come through at the Joint clinic where I will once again meet my surgeon and discuss the plans for my face.

Although I'm feeling positive now, I was devastated at first, as this appointment could reach me as late as March - a month after my last surgery date 'prediction' (I wish they wouldn't give me any more estimates as its too heartbreaking when the date passes and it doesn't happen!!) But it could also be a lot earlier. 

I don't know. 

What I do know is that there will be no more wondering if my teeth are going to be ready this time - that parts over. I will know a surgery date soon enough, and until then I'm gonna try try try to focus on anything but surgery.... yeah like that will happen right?

I'll do some nice toothy-photo updates tomorrow - I just attempted to eat a bonbon and its not a pretty sight!

Good night, my bracey-bloggers! :)

Two more sleeps...

One more day until I (hopefully) get the all clear and am given a date for surgery.

(I'm really ill with a chest infection at the moment - this had better be gone by then otherwise they might not see me!)

Still, lets stay positive!

Goodnight, and then its one more sleep... :D

Home sweet home...Now can I go back?

Afternoon! I've been rather MIA as I've had the most amazing week skiing in Morzine! It was my first time travelling alone, and it was really good for me with all the rediscovering of myself and that.

And now I'm gonna bombard you with photos cause I can't explain how awesome and beautiful it was!

I hadn't skiied in 6 years, but I was soon on the red slopes with a new great friend I met there - I was glad she was there alone too, we'd have both been pretty lonely otherwise (despite all the free drinks from the GORGEOUS guys on resort!) 


Back to real life! 

I have (dare I say it again) my evaluation pre-opp appointment on wednesday, where, once again they will decided if my teeth are ready for surgery in a month. but I'm crazy ill right now with a chest infection! and it better go away before then otherwise they won't see me!!

Hope everyone is well - Meagan your recovery is coming along so fast!!

Have a good day! 

*Raise's Glass* I'd like to thank all the bullies...

A post by blogger, Corrinne  got me thinking about how I used to feel about my face, and why I'm where I am today.

I used to be afraid to talk about my jaw, because if you talk about something, you give others permission to talk about it too- my family included. Kids at my school had enjoyed publicly humiliating me, a particularly bold class mate said my face was the shape of a foot, due to its asymmetry, and so kindly pointed this out to the whole class. Other significantly younger students have said my chin looked like a ..ahem, for use of a better word, penis! 

I never wanted to draw attention to my face, I think that's why I bite my nails - so that my hand is covering my mouth. I tried not to smile in class, and my eye contact, is STILL atrocious. I just felt like everyone was looking at it, everyone knew it looked weird. I couldn't bare to discuss this with my family because again, I was scared to have anyone else essentially agreeing with the bullies. 

Other than being referred to the Birmingham dental hospital for the TMJD (clicky, locking activity going on in my right jaw!) I hadn't addressed the cosmetic factor of my jaw, and always thought I'd never be considered an important enough case for surgery.

I have to thank one girl in particular, she found out her ex boyfriend liked me and she tagged me in a post on Facebook which said 'If I knew he liked it so much, I'd have grown a massive f**k-off chin like that.' If it wasn't for her harsh words, I wouldn't have had the courage to finally tell my parents how much this bothered me, and wouldn't have booked my first jaw consultation. Thanks again!

So here I am! - years away from the name calling of 2002-2007 and just 2 months away from having the courage to maintain eye contact with people because I'll have nothing to fear, but you know, even if I wasn't having this surgery, I wouldn't be afraid any more  You realise how childish people are as youths, and in the 'grown up world' it is (hopefully) very rare anyone would treat you that was just for looking slightly different.

Although it might not have began this way, I can happily say, that I'm having this surgery for ME and me alone, not to give them something prettier to look at ;)

'SOS' Brace Appointment

Hey so after being unable to get in at the emergency dentist over the weekend to get the wire which had slipped in to my gum cut down, I spent 2 days in agony. 

I finally managed to get in at the hospital to see a locum orthodontist at 12.20pm yesterday. I already had a hospital appointment at a different hospital at 10.15am to see a consultant about the tinitis in my ear.

They are miles apart so it was a push to make them both. I waited over 2 hours at the tinitis appointment and still hadn't been seen, so I had to leave and ask to be rescheduled. what a waste of time.

I made it to my SOS brace appointment just in time, and was seen by the same nice ortho/surgeon as last time. he changed my braces and also let me know that .....

THERE'S NO MORE ADJUSTMENTS TO MAKE!!!

I have a double appointment booked for the 16th!! 1.30pm for my impressions to be taken, then back at 4pm to get the results and decision from my surgeon!!! I'm so excited, its given me that little boost to stay positive, and I really hope its still ready for February like they said.

Happy New Year, Guys! :)

Just can't calm down

I don't know what's wrong with me.

I've become increasingly agitated all night. I've been lying on my bed since midnight and I think I'm subconsciously winding myself up. 
I keep getting tingles through my body, I can't breathe calmly and I've had a bunch of heart palpitations.
 

I'm fine - I'm not ill, I know its just bad anxiety, but I don't know why! 

I'm thinking of everything all at once, and of course surgery is more than a frequent visitor for my thoughts, but I'm so frustrated because its not done, its not now and its been almost 8 weeks and I still have no orthodontist!!!

My head is in my hands - why do we do that when we're stressed? I want to cry but I know its so irrational. I want to talk to my best friend but I don't want to burden him. I want to punch my ex in the face but I don't want to see him. 

Its like I'm really really thirsty and nothing is quenching it!

I'm going skiing in France - on my own, in less than 2 weeks, and now I'm thinking is this a bad idea. What if I get lost? what if I forget how to ski? What if I make no friends? What if the old friend I'm meeting doesn't meet me? I wanted to have had surgery by now - I'm not ready to get on with things until then - it doesn't feel worth it!

I'm clogging up all of your relevant brace information with this - but just typing this up, organising and rationalising my thoughts is making me feel better - having to think before I type is helping. I don't know why this is happening now - its Christmas for gods sake!

I guess everything just catches up to you sometimes

Muddy Walks on Christmas Eve

A/N - Meagan, hope you're feeling good! 

Happy Christmas Eve! 

Its such a shame we have no snow! 

I enjoyed a messy, muddy , wet walk in the local woods with my dogs.

They run crazzzy fast, and splash mud everywhere!

But  I love them :) 

Merry Christmas fellow brace bloggers!!